Tracend

People are accustomed to their reality – they get along with people that are like them (or substitute them) and avoid all others. Everyone lifts up their walls and so did I for a long time.

I was concerned though that I might be shutting myself out of opportunities and thought it might be a good idea to be more open and reach out – even to people that I knew from the start I’m not meant to have a relationship with.

Turns out most people live by the rule: “anything that goes against the current must be treated with caution and possible banning”. This immediately makes them my foes, even if there is no fundamental reason to be enemies. Regardless, they will act like the foes they become and will progressively label me with the following…

Step 1: Stupid
That’s the starting point for all below the belt attacks. They will find something “funny” to mock me about, as if I didn’t know better. I will be kind enough to accept that and laugh as well…

Step 2: Weak
In a foe’s mind, if I am so forgiving it must be because I can’t do anything about it. I must not know how to respond properly or I’m simply a wimp. I will be kind enough to explain to them that I am an easy going kinda guy and that it’s all water under the bridge. Foes will never accept that…

Step 3: Gay
As a man I have certain specs I need to meet. Being too kind is not complying with the image of the standard bogan male and with simplicity a foe will imply that I am less of a man. I can never take this as a joke (because it’s not meant to be) BUT I will not respond as they expect… My kindness is running out though.

Step 4: Aggressive
That’s where my kindness fails me. I put up with all the continuing bullshit for way too long and there comes a time where I will just explode. Foes will only identify and remember this, without considering any of the causes.

At this point IMO it’s already a lost battle to try to explain the situation – I just prefer to move on to my five stages of grief and start fresh somewhere else…

I’m kinda stumped with this. Why even try to be nice if you know the unfortunate outcome? Lifting the walls is an easy way out – but maybe it’s the only way. And being kind to everyone is like being kind to no one. Is this what Jesus really wants?